you know you're right

Only after it being mentioned to me and being an issue with my close friends have I realized that I come off as a jerk. I get close and comfortable with people and start to become this judgmental, arrogant, condescending asshole. She was right. She was right to start not liking things about me and push me away. I displayed this ugly, dark side of myself that is not attractive, and didn't even know I was doing it. I thought that I tried my best to make her happy and she still didn't appreciate it, but it was her that gave so much to me without recognition. She just wanted to love me, and always be there for me, yet I fought, argued, and always had to get my own way, never doing or appreciating what she liked or wanted to do. I screwed up big time and miss her an awful lot. I had no idea how blessed I certainly was until she left me. I would do anything for her and am prepared to do what it takes to change and become that sweet, caring, considerate person that I initially came off as. That is who I am. I am not an evil person who cares about no one but himself. That necklace looked far better hanging around her neck than it does around my rear view mirror.