analysis of a broken heart

My Adam, (I will always be yours)

I just left you. (it's hard every time) The cast is
warming up and I am screwing
around. (thinking about me) I am so ridiculous,
and I am so enamored (enamored is a strong word, I believed that once) with you
that I can't seem to stop
showing up in your space. (whatever happened to that?) I
don't ever want you to feel
like you take 3rd place or so
in my life. (I am dead last) My ambitions
eat me; don't let them eat
you :) (I always put your priorities first, I respected that, I was just happy to see you when I could)
You have this great big
heart, (only to love you with) and you're so sweet
to me, (you were so sweet to me, it was the least I could do) perhaps more than
you should be. (not possible, you deserved every bit of it) So please, let
me force one more part of
myself upon you. (I did, you forced everything upon me in the relationship, made me feel great and secure, and that I was the only one in the world)

Yours,
Katie (not anymore)

It doesn't make any sense. How did all this change? I told you that I was sorry for anything I have done unknowingly to upset you. You know I'd never mean to do anything like that. And if there were any problems, they're supposed to be fixed, worked through, otherwise no relationship would work out..........ever. I wish we could've worked through things, I could change, we could've spiced things up..........anything to help out and make it happier, like you once were.........you were beyond happy, you seemed so head over heels in love that I thought it to good to be true..........it appears as though it was. For once I was happy, completely in love with this wonderful person whom I wouldn't trade for the world. I wish you would've told me exactly what you wanted before leaving me. I gave you everything I thought I could, I thought you wanted. I know there must be some shred of love for me left in your heart somewhere, it was just smothered by other aspects of your life, and I had no power over that, all I could do was be there, I helped you through your struggles and enjoyed doing so. How did you know you weren't in love anymore, how did you know you were in love in the first place? All I know is that all I have is love for you in what little I have left of my heart.