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I've never been this unhappy in my life. The last 3 months have been hazy and miserable. I feel so alone and that I have been a disappointment to everyone...............friends, family, and especially you. I'm sorry to him, them, and you. Not only for what I know that I have done, but for what I have unknowingly done while we were together. It's funny, saying we were "together" doesn't have much meaning anymore.........it's been so long that it doesn't feel like we were together at all...........like it was all just a wonderful dream. I'm deeply sorry for ever being ignorant, aggressive, judgmental, or arrogant. I never meant to disappoint you. That's exactly what I have done, otherwise we wouldn't be in this situation. I never stopped loving you and am just torn inside thinking about what we once had, how happy we were for so long together. That's why I can't believe we are where we are. It doesn't seem right going from where we were to here. I look down at my tattoo and remember that it is real. That's really the only thing keeping me sane right now, my last grip on reality. I'm sorry for ruining everything, for wasting your love and potential for that brief period of your life. You say that relationships don't last forever, well some do, that's why people are married and raise children.............I know you wanted that at one point, and I'm sorry that I couldn't measure up to your expectations. I love and miss you dearly. I wish you would remember all that we shared and how much we had in common. I would give anything to see you again. Why wasn't I granted another chance?