I can change. I will change. I have to, not just for you, but for myself and everyone around me. Those things that I do unknowingly apparently have affected my old friends as well, and it's not fair. It was just never brought up. I didn't know what I was doing until it was too late. I can really come off as an asshole, when I don't really mean it. I've been hurting a lot of people that are close to me for a long time, and I severely regret it. Everything can be discussed. Just tell me what you want/wanted and I will deliver. Otherwise, what was the point? I am the same person you fell in love with. Now I know you did what you did when you did it. That weekend when you came back from Chicago, I was complaining about things and controlling, forcing you to go with me and come home with me, even though you probably wanted to settle in, hang out with Renee for a while, and I'm sorry. Then come Sunday, when we went to breakfast, I was just attacking Jessica with insults and making fun of her from the night before...........I feel awful, who knows the countless others I've hurt due to my aggressive personality. I know I've only gotten worse and worse over this summer and no matter how upset I get, it wouldn't change your mind, but I think this time apart will do us good. I know you felt put upon, tied down, and annoyed, so I'm glad that you could get away and have this summer to yourself. You said way back when that that is how you feel now, but it might change someday. I will too. You also said that it wouldn't be the same, but we aren't either. We've changed over the course of the last year. Change can be good, maybe not as drastic as separating, but change in the sense of learning new things and working together. I know that this just sounds like pleas and rambling, but which is harder, going back to what you know and loved, with an open mind, or trying to build that comfort with someone else? I love you and would do anything for you.