ghost

I feel like the walking dead. Like a ghost. I reach out, and cannot touch anything anymore. Everything I had is still there, but not accessible. All my wants are insatiable. I try to be incredibly nice to people and I have this great big heart. God forbid I use it to love you with, when that is all you wanted from me. I am not crazy. I just like you a lot. I am still/can be that same man that you fell for, physically and emotionally. I gave everything I could to you, but apparently that was not enough. I am sorry that you view my own opinions as vices, I know you had to find something. People are different. That's why we are attracted to them in the first place. This is why I was attracted to you, and probably why you were to me. We didn't agree on everything, but that is the point. You use that. You give that person what you have, and they will in return. Otherwise, it wouldn't be interesting. We were interesting. There was always something new to explore. I was unlike all the others and I know it. I am not comparing me with them, but we started off with mutual friends, we wouldn't have got together if we hadn't, and we made friends with each other's friends, whom I am still really close friends with, and yet now we can't all be around at the same time. Didn't we have a good time? I miss our pizza-breath make outs.