It's ironic, we seemed to have hit a point of repetition and safety in our relationship, yet now I'm living in an even more excessive repetition. I wake up at 8:30 every morning, nauseous, emotionless, force feed myself very little for breakfast, grudgingly go to Gloria's class, come home for lunch, go to work, come home again to a dark, empty apartment, mess around on the computer for a few hours, take my medication pretty early, then pass out, only to do it all again the next day. I'm so bored and lonely these days. I feel like I won't get out of this slump.
What happened to us?
What did you used to like so much about me?
What were you unattracted to?
What did you feel when you had that "moment of clarity" the day of the first time you ended it?
What were you feeling that Monday during our break when we spent the entire day together?
What do you miss about us? I assure you that I can come up with a variety of things.
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