night

I spent the entire night with Laura again. We went swimming, saw a movie, got a bite to eat, then watched another movie. It was nice. I appreciate her being there for me throughout all of this. While I know that she just wants to help me, and get me to go out and do things, I am trying to steer clear of her becoming a replacement for Katie. No one could ever replace her. She taught me to love completely. She'll always have a special place in my heart.

I will make it through ALL of work tomorrow. I told myself last night that I would be "on" today and I wasn't. It didn't feel as good today and the medicine only made me light headed and have a headache. I came home early so that I could rest and I got to talk to her. I am glad that she is reading what I have to say. At least it is getting out there in some fashion. She stalks me just as much as I stalk her. She is still hurting inside as well.......that almost makes it all worth while. I don't know what I am thinking or feeling right now, I need to just get some sleep.