miracle mile

She says that we're ill-suited. While I respect her opinion, I disagree. All I know is, I was always in it, never doubtful, and happy. I believe that more and more throughout the relationship, I continued to show her something that I'm not. She changed me. Not willingly, and not conscientiously on my part, but I changed. Overconfidence can be a dangerous thing. It can create something scary and unattractive. I guess in all of this, I was the one who changed the most and became more distant, and didn't even realize it. Meanwhile, I couldn't understand why she was "changing" and becoming "cold" and "distant". I felt really good about it and started having these thoughts that weren't me either, seemingly forcing her to realize that this is not what she wanted. Seems to be a recurring theme with guys that she dates. I should have just kept back, enjoyed the moment, and kept my big mouth shut half the time. While I didn't push for us to get back together in any way, she took it that way, saying that it wouldn't be the same. Isn't that the point? Why would you want it the same? If it was the same, it would end up the same way. The rudeness, the judgment, the arrogance, that's not me, and I'm sorry that she had to see that from me. Now she won't get the chance to see me for who I am. I am sorry that I ruined things. I love you.